Bren Ryder

I’m still here. Still making porn for dykes and the likes of you. Still perpetually experimenting with ways to be more productive and streamlining my business so that it’s delivering what I intend and satisfying my need for simplicity and, you know, enjoying life, being happy.

I have mixed feelings about my business right now. I doesn’t make me much money – just enough to top up my personal accounts when I’m a little low. It involves about a million details and keeps my Todo list perpetually stacked. Which, is fairly normal for a lot of people, but I fancy myself a simple butch and sometimes I wonder if it’s worth the hassle. The good news is that I don’t lose money in the deal. And, of course, I do get to film people having sex.

Sometimes I feel like shutting it down completely and just sticking to a regular job – go to work, come home, relax, and not have to get on the computer for the whole night. Running a business by yourself is like being in school, it’s all homework and I always feel like should be working on something. Except I don’t have any enforceable deadlines and little accountability – well, except to my millions of adoring fans.

I go back and forth between thinking about shutting it down completely and, the other extreme, expanding it and seeing if I can actually make some money out of it. It is porn after all, there must be money to be made.

I love filming, and I love editing and I’ve basically turned my favourite thing into a job, but I suck at accounting, marketing, promotion, and, um…business. So this is the point where I get to reach out to my community and get help from those who are good at those things and want to do their part to bring good dyke porn to the world. Except I suck at doing that too.

I’m not ready to give up on this thing yet. I’m working on some ideas that will allow for better access to individual scenes and various options for memberships and prices. My main priority is customer satisfaction. Shooting new sex scenes in a small community isn’t always possible on a consistent basis. And, frankly, I don’t want to stress over it. I’m looking for that sweet spot: the place where I don’t stress too badly, still get to create the work, and consistently fulfill the customers expectations of what I’ve promised to deliver.